Okay, you know how you live through a year and wonder where the time went? That’s how I feel now, as I technically mark the first anniversary of this blog. Yes, it’s been a whole year since I invited you into my world and locked the doors behind you, so you can’t escape. Aren’t you glad you’re here with me? This is the moment where people like me usually get very introspective and philosophically contemplate what’s happened during that time. Well…what the hell did you think I’d do?! Just ask for donations to my retirement account? You can do that, too, but read me out on this one.
A few things have remained the same during the past year. I’m essentially still an unemployed technical writer. My parents are still loud and opinionated. My dog is still a cool little dwarf Rottweiler. I’m still working on my novel. People still piss me off. My truck is still dirty.
But, mostly things have changed – and changed for the better. I’ve done more writing in the last year than I have in the previous ten. I’ve managed to let go of my past life and move forward; finally understanding that rehashing events from long ago only creates more wrinkles and anxiety. I’m one year closer to age 50 and eagerly anticipate that glorious milestone – and hope I don’t spend it in jail from going overboard in a road rage incident (which is really difficult not to do in the Dallas area). I’ve learned to leave my body alone and masturbate no more than once a week. I’ve come to realize that intoxicated doesn’t always equal creative. I’m emotionally closer to my parents and my dog; knowing I may not have any of them too much longer.
Working on this blog also has been one of the most therapeutic outlets I’ve ever encountered. For someone who grew up shy and introverted like me, writing is a mere form of expression. In the past, we creative types had to sulk in our art work and hope that someone would hear our cries for justice – and money. Alas, the Internet came along and freed us – and many others – from the doldrums of loneliness. Blogging alone has opened up a new universe for me; allowing me to share my thoughts and views on a world that’s as beautiful and enticing as it is ugly and aggravating. I know the first two attributes often remain hidden amidst the chaos, and that’s why I enjoy writing so much. It forces me to explore outside my immediate realm.
I have to thank everyone who follows my blog and anyone who has visited it. Your own insights are more valuable than any currency or precious metal. Ideas and healthy dialogue invigorate people and keep them free. I know all of us in the blogging world realize that more than just about anyone else.
In the meantime, my beloved followers, you’re still trapped in the web of my psyche. So don’t even think about trying to get out!